I'm proud to be Jewish. I like a lot of the traditions, the heritage, and some of the ethics. But I don't know how I feel about God. for the longest time, I've believed in a shared energy source, a common bond throughout the universe that pulls things together. It's something beyond the current grasp of physics. I believe that people have a power inside them to change things through thought, or at least to influence things in a way that is beyond our direct actions.
But I don't like the concept of "God." There's something about it, just calling it that, that reminds me of oppression and ignorance. Organized religion, Christianity in particular, has completely destroyed my respect for "God."
I feel like this is more about the actions and not the concepts. There are some respectable aspects of Scientology. From my, albeit limited, understanding of the religion, it's like a bunch of therapy sessions helping people to accept what they've done in their life and learning to move on from that. Let's ignore the fact that the religion is based on science fiction, which doesn't actually seem all that different from most religions. Christianity, in its current form, encourages people to focus on what happens in the afterlife and judge other people now, while simultaneously claiming that they don't do either one.
Well, the problem is that my disdain for Christianity is turning into a disdain for the word "God." Every Facebook post I see on my news feed or church sign I pass reminds me of the hatred that I've faced in my own life because of their concept of God.
It leads to me being judgmental, the thing that I'm critical of in the first place. I see Christians as hateful and ignorant. It's something I would love to overcome. I don't want to feel this way. But prejudices don't go away just because you recognize their existence, and often times they have some precautionary basis. Perhaps I should be a little hesitant about people who are overtly Christian. I mean, I don't expect to find myself in Kevin Smith's Red State, but bad things do happen to little gay Jewish boys. In the meantime, I'll try not to be so offended by God. Alanis would expect better from me.